Cause I know that this is hurting you more than anything and it feels like your whole world is inverted. To that I say, it’ll get better. Easier. It takes time and a whole lot of effort, but it will eventually hurt less. He did love you.
But I also have to say, you had a million chances to have him. You could have trusted and matured and he would have kept you for a long long time. But the harder you fought, the harder you pushed him away.
So I’m sorry that you couldn’t see that. I’m sorry it turned out like this. I actually, truly am.